My 1st week in Med School.

I have to admit, I went psycho during my first week in school. I expected it to be.. well, not easy - but more of a challenge as compared to college. After going through my first 5 days in class, I realized that it's a whole new level of nerd.

Let me enumerate my thoughts during the first few days.

1. What trap have I gotten myself into. Right now, I don't know who I am, where I am, or what I'm doing.

2. I'm afraid of dead or severely injured bodies. I know it's weird that I pursued Medicine knowing one of these days, I will def be in contact with them. I don't know, I thought maybe I could handle it.

3. Lectures would last for about 2-3 hours. Back in college, it was bearable to go through these lectures without trying so hard. For the lectures that I have now, I struggle most of the time to not doze off and to keep my sanity in check. The reason I lose focus is because half of the lecture, I don't even know what we're talking about anymore. Which brings us to my next thought..

4. You are at a disadvantage if your PreMed is not a hundred percent science. Well, not really. A little background about me if you don't know already, I graduated BS Psychology. Most of my classmates finished Biology, Medical Technology, Nursing, etc. I do know some who still thrived regardless of their previous course. But my point here is that there are a lot of things that I don't know.

5. Low grades. It's the first week so there were no formal grading of performance just yet. But just by the looks of it, I think I'm doing pretty bad as compared to my other classmates.

6. I know no one. Not all my college buddies went to med school. In fact, I was the first one in my circle of friends who actually went. So basically during my first day, I was completely alone. I wasn't really worried about making new friends - I mean that's easy, you can just talk to someone and voila! A friend. My worries were: "What if I can't find my way to the next class?", "What if schedules/rooms changed, how will I know about it?" and also "Where the hell are my classmates going and where are they buying these Manuals from?". In short I was completely and utterly lost. 

So there, my first week jitters. But if you think about it, it's all part of adjusting.

1. Med school may or may not be my life long dream. But series of events led me to this place and at this exact time, so it's likely that I am here because I was fated to be here. Remember that not everyone is. You have to own it.

2. First week and I was already exposed to a cadaver. Not the whole body, but parts of it. Initially I thought I won't be able to handle it, but it was not as bad as I thought it would be. We actually had our laboratory discussion with the cadavers right in front of us. As in I could even hold hands with him/her if I want to. So what I'm saying is that, I freaked out over nothing. Why worry about something that's not even there yet.

3. It's okay to doze off. You're not a robot. You need sleep too. Just don't worry so much about not getting it the first time. You can always ask, read references, or watch videos to better understand the subject. There's always an option to be resourceful.

4. I don't care if your a Psych major, Business Major or out of this world major, as long as you prep up and review, everything will be clear to you soon. Besides, you can always use your Psych background as an advantage. You know very well how to manage emotions. Just don't let stress get to you. You know perfectly well how to maintain a healthy mind, body and soul - YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF YOUR OWN PSYCHOLOGICAL STATE.
5. I experienced an extreme let down of self esteem earlier this week. You're grade conscious, I know. But isn't everyone? It's just a matter of building up confidence. Don't focus too much on other people but rather focus on yourself and your potentials. Keep in mind what the lecturer said: "From a thousand applicants, only 400 of you were chosen. This means you're the cream of the crop. You're above average." and by that she meant all.

6. No friends? No worries. To be honest, I went through a lot introductions with a lot of people before I finally met my group. I did make a slight effort to look for a group I'd fit in but eventually, the group found me. There is no denying that you will definitely be part of a group with people having the same thoughts/personality as you. So no rush. Eventually I got to know most of my classmates. And they're pretty cool actually. 

I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it. For all the incoming Medschool freshmen out there, lighten up. If you're tense, that's normal. You're simply in a state of adjustment so don't beat yourself up. You only need to do 3 things: KEEP CALM, STUDY HARD, AND BECOME A DOCTOR.

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I read through some threads about first week experiences in medschool. It seems I wasn't the only one. In fact, quite a number shared the same experience. See here.

Walking dead.

I can never get any more bum than this.

It's been a week since I've become a total shut in. My day goes as follows: wake up, eat, go back to sleep, surf the net, play with kudut, starve, mental collapse sometimes leading to a nap, headache, eat (a lot), wash up, pray, and finally, surf the net until I fall asleep. Every now and then I also manage my Restaurant City. RESTAURANT CITY FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. I have so much free time I now have time to play it again which is just sad.

For the first few days, it felt rejuvenating. There was even a day I never saw daylight because my heart, mind and soul decided to sleep in. Yeah, I'm practically a sloth. But now that a week has passed, my brain started nagging: "What are you doing with your life right now." "I wonder what the future holds for you." "I believe you have stuffs to do." "You're gaining weight." yadda yadda yadda. It's only been a week but it felt like a long time has passed. And because of fasting, everything 'seems' so draining (or so I thought). I have to change that mindset though. I'm trying so hard to find the motivation to un-bumify. And I have to find it quick.

One of the many reasons I keep procrastinating is because of this new show I'm watching. It's called 'Roommate', a Korean reality show which involves 11 celebrities (combination of idols, actors, athletes) living under one roof. Kinda like PBB minus the big brother, all the drama, and the eviction. It's all fun and games with this one which for me looks more legit. My only frustration is that it's still airing so I have to wait like a week for the next ep. Agh.

In the mean time, please enjoy this new MV of EXO. I know I am.

The Burger Project.

So much burger win on this one.

Everyone knows I'm not much a fan of burgers. The only burger I ever crave for is the cheeseburger of McDonalds. That is.. mainly because of the cheese. However last May 30, us Três Marias (Me, Kapatid and Filar) went to Burger Project to try out their all famous create-your-own-burger. To give you an overview of what went down that day, let's just say it veered me away from what I was accustomed of.

So they give you this check-list of things you want to put in your burger. It was tempting to mark whatever floats your boat, but of course you would have to consider the taste when laid down together. As for me, I was quite pleased with my creation. It turned out fine, taste-wise too. Serving was huge and service was fast. Needless to say, I left that store with a satisfied tum tum. Down rating a bit though because it was pretty hot inside.

Rating: 9

Congratulations to those who've noticed a change in my template.

I've been meaning to work on that for a while now but never had time to do so. I knowww, it's rather simple, but sometimes you just have to keep things minimal and easy, thus, the minimalistic concept. You have to admit, it looks professional. Well, what can I say? I grew and matured. Hahaha.

Sorry for not keeping up lately. In fact, I have lots of draft pending in the dashboard. Apologies for I am still trying to adjust to the whole work schedule. I'll try very hard to do so in the future. Pinky swear.

Emergency Couple.

It's been 123456789 years since I've made a review of this.

I don't even know where or how to start.
I do remember having that fluttery feeling during the mid-episodes. The first part, meh, not really feeling it. But things escalated when the romance started.

Why did I watch it? Simply because it was a medical drama. My comments to that? Awesome possum. A medical drama of interns was a first for me. It was interesting of course and I have to admit, I learned a lot. The life in ER is kind of hectic. I should prepare myself well.

Song Ji Hyo was super adorable here! I mean.. she's always adorable, she's Song Ji Hyo. But her character was very different from when I first saw her in Princess Hours. I don't know about others but "Blank Ji" really does suit her. Haha. Anyway, things got REAALLY BORING when  the two of them (I'm not saying who) started going out (as in all other dramas). In fact, for the last episode, I was hoping it would end soon. Just a question though, why do they all want a divorce? And how could they bring that up so easily as if choosing what flavor ice cream they're going to pick? Aigoo.

Rating: 7.5

On another note, let's talk about my work. I realized I've wrote some terrible things on that last post. Not really regretting (nor am I sorry) I wrote those. But I guess now that I have a clear mind, it was obvious I wrote out of rage. For those of you who're asking about it, don't. I got over it and now that I had some time to reflect, I realized it was all part of growing up. To become professionally successful in what I do. No, I'm not bitter. If anything, it's a learning experience for me. Thank you for worrying and for all the pep talks but really, I feel and am doing awesome now. Thanks.

In fact, something really great happened yesterday. :')

Project Assistant.

Well will you look at that. I'm now employed.

OMG. I'm officially a grown up!
Will report to the office this May 5 as Project Assistant. I was actually hoping to land a job as an HR Assistant since that was what my course offers, but to be honest, for me this was way better. We basically handle projects like fairs, conventions, workshops and the like while making connections and partnerships. I don't know about you but for me it seems fun. An HR Assistant does a lot of paper work, encoding and monitoring just within the company's boundaries. Here I get to go over that boundary and extend my connections. Yep, I like it. Let's just see if I still do after a month or so. :)

I started computing and learning about salaries and realized how unfair the tax system here is. 30% of your salary goes to the government, minus the other fees like insurance. Let's say you earn 50k a month. Subtract the tax and you'll only be left with 30k. As a citizen, yes it's my duty to pay taxes. But now that I'm employed, I'm starting to feel how much a loss it was for the Filipinos who worked so hard but were cheated by our very own, the pork barrel. How insensitive was it for them to take all the money for their personal benefit (now I really sound like a grown up lol).

Re watching this because it's cute! :">

I can't wait for the comeback. And please have a reality show again, jaebalyoo~ I miss their quirkiness! 

I Hear Your Voice

This drama made me cry so much.

“An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. If we lived by that law, then all the people in the world would be blind.” Lots of quotable quotes from this drama. Definitely a new fave. I liked how the story was fast-paced, unlike usual dramas where the story seems to happen in a few days or a month or so. This one was a huge ball of.. case study. Lol, pun intented.

This is actually my first legal drama. And I've never had the slightest interest of becoming a lawyer. After watching this, I still don't. Haha. But it did spike my levels of justice. People don't do crime just because they want to, they ought to have a reason. But what I've learned from watching this? Those people are weak. And I don't blame them for being so. Rather, I pity them. I pity how they don't have anyone by their side to tell them not to risk their lives and live like a beast. #muchfeels

Long story short, I LIKED IT. The story, the characters, the setting, up to the gadgets and fashion, everything. I loved the lead actress, Lee Bo Young! Her strong, bold, sophisticated yet comical character is really admirable. It suits her quite well. Also, I still can't believe Lee Jong Suk was in this. I was all OMG-faced the first few episodes. Yoon Sang-Hyun, Lee Da-Hee, and even Secretary Moon from Cheongdamdong Alice was in it. Just... WOW. The perfect cast. Anyway, it was wayyy good. I'm all depressed yet again because another good one ended and I'm left to deal with these feels. #sigh
Rating: 10

In other news. Got me my new baby! :3

Tried and tested, it's good for what it's worth. It's lightweight, easy to use and very cute! I've always wanted my own sewing machine. And it's about time I put my 4 years of sewing in to good use. Don't be fooled, I'm still just a rookie who still has lots to learn (like getting a job now that I'm unemployed for example). But yeah, having fun so far. :)

92 facts about AHJ.

Found this on FB. This used to be a thing back then. Haha.

A friend tagged me 3 years ago and said I had to answer the same questions. I have lots of it pilled up in my fb account, some of which I didn't bother to read. #sorrynotsorry

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage = Coke, bleh.

2. Last phone call = Dale.

3. Last text message = "Haha yuhhh. Any, balitaan mo ako sa results niyo pagreleeeeaaaase. :)"

4. Last song you listened to = Not A Bad Thing by J. Timberlake

5. Last time you cried = April 20, 2014. Around 2 am, I think?

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice = Hm.. was that a date? IDK.

7. Been cheated on = No.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = Yes.

9. Lost someone special = Yes.

10. Been depressed = Of course.

11. Been drunk and threw up = Never.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Orange.

13. Red.

14. Blue Green.

LAST YEAR (2013), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = Lots of new friends.

16. Fallen out of love = Hm... I wasn't IN love, so no?

17. Laughed until you cried = Definitely.

18. Met someone who changed you = Yes?

19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes.

20. Found out someone was talking about you = No?

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = No.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Lots.

24. Do you have any pets = Two turtles. Haha.

25. Do you want to change your name = There are times.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = With family.

27. What time did you wake up today = Around 1pm.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Trying VERY HARD to sleep.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Independence.

30. Last time you saw your Mother = An hour ago.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Memory.

32. What are you listening to right now = One For Me by SHINee.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = No.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = That cockroach, ugh.

35. Most visited webpage = Watchdrama, meta picture and 9gag. Don't judge.

37. Nickname = Ahj or Nanah.

38. Relationship Status = Single.

39. Zodiac sign = Virgo.

40. He or She = She.

41. Elementary = HFS

42. High School = HFS

43. College = MC

44. Hair color = Dark Brown.

45. Long or short = Medium.

46. Height = 5'4

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Yep.

48. What do you like about yourself? = What's not to like? Jk lol.

 49. Piercings = None, kahit ears. :(

50. Tattoos = Never.

51. Righty or lefty= Righty.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = None.

53. First piercing = Ears.

54. First best friend = Alyx.

55. First sport you joined = Volleyball.

56. First vacation = Laguna?

58. First pair of trainers = Ha?

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = No.

60. Drinking = No.

61. I'm about to = Watch episode 13.

62. Listening to = Moon River Waltz by SHINee.

63. Waiting for = Something that's never gonna happen.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = Twins.

65. Get Married? = Yes.

66. Career? = Medical Doctor.

  

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.

68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.

69. Shorter or taller = Taller.

70. Older or Younger = Older.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = ABS. HAHAHAHA.

73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.

74. Hook-up or relationship = Fixed.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = In between.

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = No.

77. Drank hard liquor = Never.

78. Lost glasses/contacts = YES!

79. Sex on first date = WTH.

80. Broke someone's heart = IDK? Ask them.

81. Had your own heart broken = Yes.

82. Been arrested = No.

83. Turned someone down = Yes?

84. Cried when someone died = Yes.

85. Fallen for a friend = Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = OF COURSE.

87. Miracles = Yes.

88. Love at first sight = I think so?

89. Heaven = IDK.

90. Santa Claus = No.

91. Kiss on the first date = No.

92. Angels = IDK.

Personality Test.

I rarely give a crap when it comes to personality tests trending on my timeline. At times they're just so unreliably true, it bugs you. But just for the heck of it, see which of the following attracts you most.

If you don't have the slightest interest on how mine turned out and would just like to see yours, simply follow this link.

My first choice: (7) Cultured and classical

Cultured and sophisticated. You value the things money can't necessarily buy - good conversation, original ideas, music and the arts. You have a fair mind and can see both sides of an argument. You rarely let emotions get the better of you, preferring to assess situations rationally. Calm, logical and yet compassionate and kind. You have 'old-fashioned' principles, which at heart make you a real lady. A timeless, vintage classic - the sort of person everyone secretly admires and likes to copy. 

My second choice: (4) Down to earth and charming

You have a natural authentic charm, what you see is what you get. People admire you because you seem so 'together'. You have both feet planted firmly on the ground and they can depend on you. While others complicate their life with ifs and buts, you know your own mind. You provide security and space to those close to you. You are a rock, and although others may not tell you, you are the sun around which they revolve. You dislike superficiality and tend to be skeptical toward the whims of trends. Where others crash and burn, you motor on, quietly achieving all you need to do. You are a woman of substance.

My third choice: (6) Peaceful and timeless

You are easy-going yet discreet. There is a timeless elegance about you (think Audrey Hepburn). You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life. You need space, so you escape to hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer. You have a strong life purpose and when you discover it, you project your personal brand of magic on the world.

I wouldn't say it's entirely true. Some might even disagree. But I think this one's pretty spot on? Idk. You be the judge. :)

Well, it's official.

I'm given the chance to turn fantasy into reality.

My NMAT fee is finally paid for! This means there's definitely no turning back. :)

It's official. This test would tell me if I'm cut out or not. Doctor. It's an insane commitment that requires a lot of contemplating. While undergoing serious review sessions for the past 6 days, I'm becoming more and more critical about it. Because dude, it's not something you take lightly. It's practically like marriage! Haha. Anyway, I'll keep this short because I need to get back to studying. But yeah, just wanted to pressure my self a bit. Pray for me, please. I wish to do well and if I do, then I'll take it as me pursuing the medical life. :3

This marks the start of a new journey in my life.

Speaking of journey, one just recently ended. The thesis journey that is (and very soon, college). I would like to take the opportunity to thank everyone who helped in making this possible. Our professor, our adviser, our parents, friends, acquaintances, and of course the Almighty. I personally would like to thank my thesis mates for committing. It placed great strain to our friendship but we managed. I've learned a lot and I'm proud to say I grew as a person. So I thank you. It has been unpleasantly pleasant. :)

Final grades.

That feeling you get when you're just 0.1 away from being a Dean's Lister. ARE YOU KIDDING ME MADAFADA?!

Not sure if I should suck it up or if I need to do something about it. Hm.. There is one particular subject which I think needs some inquisition though. You know, getting informed of the breakdown of grades. But seriously, that feeling I got when I saw the semestral QPA was just..

I was too close. *sigh* By the way, I'm sorry for all the profanity on the gifs. I would censor it if I could but I couldn't.

Since it's not really in my nature to complain, I would just have to endure a period of mental, physical, and emotional agony. Anyway, I did very well on the subjects I thought I lacked in. That'll keep me sane for a few days. NOT.

How about some SHINee to kill the misery?

"Make me colorful." -Onew

School 2013 + Pseudo-hiatus post

Aish, this drama.

For a class said to have the lowest rank, they're pretty smart. Mature. Whether we admit it or not, most of us are like the bitchy girl in the film. We tend to focus on studies and forget about the people around us. The film made me realize that. That this world needed people like them. People who cares about one another. Chingoo or not, they have your back.

I realized how rare that was today. I also realized how selfish I was. I used to say I'm not but I guess my definition of selfless changed. Also.. "The thing you can't see is bigger than the thing you can see in the world." -that dialougue from the film pretty much sums up everything.

It was beautifully written, the plot, the scenes, everything. I watched the whole 16 ep in just a few days because it was so annoyingly interesting that I just had to watch the next ep. I'm telling you, there was never a dragging part. As for the ending.. I got disappointed at first because I thought it was a cliffhanger. Then I realized I was wrong. It was a beautiful ending, and because it was, I never wanted it to end. Aish, what do I do now? What am I suppose to do with all this emotion, wisdom and motivation I got from the film? *sigh* This feeling you get after watching a good film. Anyway, the characters were spot on. And I especially revered the bromance between Nam Soon and Heung Soo. The past.. that was a huge bump on their friendship. It was too complicated, but I guess you can't run away from it forever. Look how adorable their friendship was! Awwww. ♥

Rating: 10 plus ★★★ because I liked it way too much.
By far, the best school drama I've watched.

[03/07/08]
Will be somewhat busy the next 30 days.

I am now preparing for the coming NMAT exams this April 6. As you can see from the pic above, I've only 30 days left. Gotta go through Biology, Physics, Psychology, Sociology, etc again.
I decided to take it this year instead of last because I'm not really someone who can jog two important things at one time. You know, the present and the future. College and med school. I'll be held up a year though. I don't know yet what I'll be doing then. I'm currently looking for a job. Job. That sounded so grown up. Haha.

Wish me the best! I'm trying to gather as much discipline I could ever have. Now that I'm done with School 2013 and I've blogged about it, it's time I get back to reality.

My first face pack!

I know it's ridiculous that I had to share something as small as this to the blog world. Haha. But..

Yayayay! Got to try my first face mask ever!
Okay, no. That was a lie. I have tried one before, twice now actually. But that was because of the added service for when I had my acne removal. Anyway, this one was for cleansing (and also because I wanted to pamper myself after an exhausting day.. at home, lol).

St. Ives, Timeless Skin (Mineral Clay Firming Mask).
Clay, so it was extra hard to apply it on the face. It hardens real quick so I had to daub like really fast. Haha. Anyway after applying, you have to wait 10-15 mins before you can wash it off. You could just feel how it hardens up like a cement (making it hard for me to smile for the camera, lol). It was nice. I'm not exaggerating or whatever but I woke up feeling refreshed, clean. Really. (though I wanted a mask that cools and that could be peeled off. It's more fun that way. Hahaha.)

I'm really trying to live up to my 2014 resolution - healthy living. I wanted to loose weight yes but I also want to have a very healthy system. Though we all know it's hard to just change overnight, I'm relying on my internal motivation for a boost. I recently started this thing called the "Banana Diet" where I only eat bananas for breakfast plus room temperature water. What's great about this diet is that I get to eat whatever for lunch and dinner. So why bananas?

Bananas are filled with enzymes that boost digestion and metabolism that aids weight loss. They are a rich source of resistant starch, which is thought to leave you feeling satisfied and therefore less inclined to overeat at meal times as well as increasing the body’s fat-burning capacity.

 Also, I need bananas for its potassium. I started the TTHSatSun work out, you see, so I need it now more than ever to avoid getting muscle cramps. Besides the ones mentioned, there are lots of other benefits of eating potassium riched food, see here. And besides potassium, there are also a variety of food sources that would help you shred those extra pounds, see here. Anyway, just a funny confession: I tried searching for different idol fitness secrets the past few days (I have 5 bookmarked). Hahaha. I just think some of it were a little extreme (Yuri's 600 daily sit-ups, Kim Ah Joong's 3k daily jump rope, and some other idols eating nothing but plants the whole day). And as expected, it takes a lot more than motivation to look as fine as them.

Just some friendly tips though: (1) If you want to loose weight, be sure to have a balanced diet. Don't starve yourself, alright? That ain't helpful. (2) When choosing an exercise routine, follow one that suits you, one that you can handle. Don't over work your self, I mean c'mon know your limits. (3) And finally, when you have decided to join the fitness bandwagon, DO IT FOR YOU. This would help motivate you more efficiently.

The maturation of Ahj.

The past 2 weeks have been a challenge.
Last week, as I got home from volunteering, I got a text from my mom saying that the brother of my dad passed away (may he rest in peace). A very sudden death. It was so sudden that I woke up at 2am to my dad, my mom and 3 of my sisters' packing and leaving (for our province). Heard they'll bury my uncle there, hence the trip. Anyway, I heard my dad saying they were about to leave but I didn't have the guts to look him straight in the eye for I know he had been crying all this time. And I couldn't dare look at someone going through hardships and know that I can't do anything about it. Especially if it's a family member. So I pretended to be sleepy and went back to bed. -Long story short, we (the youngsters), were the only ones left at home. My older sister was pregnant, my older brother was preoccupied with stuffs and my little brother was too dependent. So I had to move for us to survive. I had to cook breakfast for them, fix my lil bro his baon, pay the bills, go grocery shopping, wash dishes and other mom duties.. all these, side by side with my schooling. It was tough. Time was pretty limited, I thought. But I am very proud to say that I am now a master rice cooker-er. Hoorah! ;) =)))

Together with my maturation, I recently started watching the season 3 of awkward. Change blows. I am down to my last 2 episodes and I can't believe how the episodes are going so far. Too. much. to. handle. It's intense! I liked and hated the new character, Collin. Same with the new Jenna. But I don't know, let's see it to the end. I did miss watching this. And now I have to wait for the next season, again. =_=

2 things.

I've been slacking, again. No blog movement since the ever fab SHINee comeback. I keep procrastinating.

1. Boracay trip

Simply put, I love Boracay. This is coming from someone who's not really a fan of the beach. Their fine white sand and clear blue waters is just perfect! No huge pain in the foot rocks nor slimy seaweeds several steps from the shore. -hate the feel of seaweeds crawling up my skin ugghhh. I'm not Thalassophobic but I sometimes feel threatened of sea creatures for some reason. However my trip to Boracay was quite different, I felt at ease. I got to swim with all sorts of fish and even got to feed them! The distance between me and them were pretty close might I add. Hihi. I'm proud. :3

Okay so we stayed their for 3 days. 5 days off if you are to include the ship ride. And during my stay I got to experience a lot of firsts: first parasailing, first helmet dive, first flying fish, first banana boat and first live watch of fire dancing brought to us by Phoenix Fire Dancers. All in all I had a blast and I felt sad leaving the place. Will come back fo sho!

2. Motivation is back!

School is right around the corner and I've gained weight. :(
I am currently on my idol diet again and I've strictly followed it for 4 consecutive days now. With regular exercising of course. Tired as hell but it's for my own good anyway, so better shape up! You're welcome body! Haha.

On another note, I've organized my NMAT study files already. Decided to start studying and allotting atleast an hour each day for it. Right on, brain! It's good to have a head start. :)

#KPopRepublicHereICome.

I am thrilled to share to you guys that I am now in possession of a Kpop Republic Ticket! OHMYGOD. Couldn't stop yapping about it as I got them, sorry about that. Ahihi. I'm just THAT excited. My first concert ever! :'(

Soon.. I'd get to watch this live:

Anyway, I worried that seats were sold out so I bought mine as soon as I can. Although I heard they were selling tixx since July. Hahaha.

Since I wasn't able to save up for gold, I settled with silver. But with all the fees I've been paying lately, although it's against my will to do so, I had to ask for help. And well, let's just say I'm my sister's slave now. Just for a few days. Oh well, if it means I'd get to see my SHINee Oppas then I'd be anyone's slave anytime!

18 more days, Ahj! OHMYGOD. I'll get to see Onew. :'(
#extremelyhappy

Wazzup, ketchup!

It's been ages! I'm sorry. :(
A lot has been going on all at the same time lately. School, relationships, fasting, that I haven't had the time to update anywhere. Facebook as an exception. So here I am now, being a bum for a while because it's a great do nothing Monday night!

Before anything else, I wanted you guys to see my black nails. Haha. It wasn't like that just a few days ago. It was way messy. Fixed it up for the photoshoot (supposed photoshoot) and well.. because the last one was just hideous. Simple black nails! Just the way I like them.

On the other hand, I am WAAAAY excited for September! You know why? Well let's just say one of my long time wishes had come true. No, not 'one of' but THE ultimate wish. Fudgeeeee. Yes, that's right! I almost cried when I heard that my SHINEE OPPAS ARE COMING THIS SEPTEMBER 7! Huhuhuhu (tears of joy)! Together with Exo K and Dalshabet. OMG, I'll be seeing my oppas real soon! Huhuhu. I am just so happy. :D Less than a month to go and I'll be seeing Onew! Hihihi. I'll buy my ticket tomorrow probably. But only when the rains not being mean. I hope there're some good seats left!

What else? Well, it's thesis period so I've nothing much to talk about besides the ones above. Nothing special happened. So I'll instead be leaving you with a good song to listen to for this perfect cold weather: SHINee's Selene.

Whatayanow.

Look who's all grown up now.
Really not enjoying this one bit. I am confused to death. Although I can't really open it up here since this is a very public site, allow me to be vague and just put things out here for a moment.

I never thought it'd be so complicated. Different from how I see it in televesion. In real life you are unable to see things as a whole. You can only see what you can only see. Which is sad. I just hate the unknown. -_-

I couldn't get a good night sleep last night because current events are just bothering me. Why, Lord? Why? I wished for it, yes, but not like this. Stop playing games. Hay. Strange how it all feels so new. I just feel so lucky to have friends pulling me out of my misery. I received an SMS which really had me thinking. The message was true. Ending everything when things haven't even started. And no, I didn't mean that in a suicidal way. Haha. Just.. I don't know what I'm being depressed about. Really. Ang gulo mo nga.

On the other hand, I am currently watching the Flower Boy Next Door. This has been recommended to me a long time ago but I haven't really had the time to sit back and drama on. But since I'm done with the training and well.. to get my mind off of things I decided to watch it now. Liking it so far.
Unrequited love.

Also, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MOMS OUT THERE! You must know how great you've been doing. :)

Swing Girls.

I've never been a fan of jazz, ever. I was for classical music but jazz? I assumed it was for rich old people.

It's amazing how movies can just change your mind.
Watched a Japanese film called Swing Girls. I had no intention watching, and I was going to look for other movies, but for some reason I stayed. It surprisingly is a good movie. Jazz is pretty cool. I wanted to try it even. :)

I must admit though, it was quite common. The plot. It's one of those films where the characters start off as beginners and then later on joins a competition to which surprise surprise does really well. I only liked it because their last performance was extremely good. I had goosebumps the whole time. It was.. nice. Had me reconsider my assumption of Jazz as being for rich old people.

Rating: 7.5

On another note, I now have a workplace! Yahoo!
I'll be working at a psychiatric hospital, ain't it cool? Hoping to gain lots of experience and work on my patience! Hoping to meet new people too while I'm on it. Will be having an orientation tomorrow and I hope everything turns out well. ^^

Mom And Tina's

Wasn't able to post this earlier. Pic quality sucks too. :(
Anyway, we had our early dinner after defense at Mom and Tina's! Although serving time took long, the food was great! Also, appreciated how they exchanged my order with pesto when I found out that their Chicken Relleno had pork on it. That was heroic of you, bruh. Haha.

Rating: 8.5

Just now, my dad was in a real deep nightmare. It was as if he was crawling away from something. Like Sasaeng 'fans'. And he was mumbling all this.. well, mumbles. First time I saw him like that and it was a pretty scary site, so I woke him up. He was so thankful that I did. He certainly did not want to sleep again after that. Could hear him heavy breathing. :(

Sorry, I could not contain my feels. Was just reading an article on Sasaeng fans thus the reason behind my mentioning. "One time, a member was walking out when a sasaeng fan grabbed him by the back of his hair and caused him to fall over. She only did it because she wanted to be remembered by him, even if it's for something bad." WTF man. Could they still be considered fans? I understand that they wanted their idols to know they exist but that's just too much. I mean, ain't it enough to see them in person? Aish, humanity. It's a good study though. Ahehe.

Well, time to get back to work. It was fun while it lasted. Now I should go back to thesis mindset. Aigoo. But before that, how about we enjoy the last stage for SHINee's Dream Girl?

Just to update.

K, so I've been gone for God knows how long.
Yes, I'm still alive and well. Don't worry about me recovering from some serious illness or something, no I'm not dying. I am instead stressing over deadlines which may be one possible cause of my being dead at the moment.

But alas, when I'm this much occupied, there are certain things God do to make me smile.

Greetings that are directed to a group won't move you much, let's be honest with ourselves. But a message coming from a friend telling you to smile when you most need it, now that would move you. Kapatid, yes I'm talking about you. You deserve to at least be recognized in this blog of mine for your heroic act. Haha.

Another would be this:

Dream girl! Gaaah. I'm going deaf because I kept listening to THE ALBUM. Yeah, the entire thing. I just love SHINee. I won't ever get sick of them, I promise. Their songs are just my style. And Onew's voice, ohGod. The fluttering feeling it gives never changes. I've said this several times before but I'll say it again, I hope to see you soon. :)